My friend called me today…
The one that I was telling you all about.
The one who I truly didn’t know if he was a real person or if he was my heart beat 💖 hiding behind some ruse.
Nevertheless, I am happy.
& my heart doesn’t want to know.
I am not in a place where I can take another let down.
Especially, after smiling all day, especially after being happy & my heart fluttering at the thought.
I’m leaving it right here.
And I’m not answering the phone for my friend.
Either God is going to fulfill His word & this whole waiting thing will come to an end.
Or the worst will happen & I’ll be heartbroken, because I truly thought this was God…
I’m sorry, but even the thought of that…
Like, I just can’t…
I can’t take it not being him.
Neither, can I think that the guy I like is probably some arrogant man who doesn’t even know I exist.
I can’t take another,
At least not until the time ⏰ allots for me to have to come to such a conclusion.
And with that being said,
I still have another month 🗓️ until I have to deal with that outcome.
I’m staying up ⬆️ here.
On cloud 9 ⛅️…
Listening to my love playlist & flying around my house like a bird. 🦢🥰
At least until December 31st.
Then, if nothing happens,
I’ll have my answer and I’ll permanently let this go.
I don’t even want to think about that day.
So, until then.
I’m staying up here.
Where my heart is fluttering 💖 at the thought 💭 of someone liking me just as much as I like them.
Where the thoughts of “No he wasn’t a jerk, he was just too shy” reign.
Where the thoughts of “Oh, he likes me this much! That is so cute” rules. 🤗
Not coming down from here.
⭐️ On another note, I must let you all know that I am about to enter into a season of heavy discretion.
So, I hope y’all have been enjoying these blogs because I will be keeping my personal life to myself starting next month.
Well, tomorrow actually.
I know y’all probably enjoy my randomness and silliness and deep thoughts but…
That’s an instruction from The Lord Himself.
So, all of my deep thoughts and wonderings 💭 will be in a personal journal 📓 from now on, until God says otherwise.
I’m still gonna blog about relationships, dating, & Jesus & stuff, but anything about my personal life or my thoughts or situations, (even though y’all never know what I’m talking about) 🤣
My season of quietness 🤫 starts tomorrow so…
With that being said…
Mooey Gooey Fadooey!!!
I had to get that out! 😅
Now that that’s out.
I’ll write ✍🏽 to you guys later.
Once my silent season is over,
I’ll catch you all up to speed. 💐☺️🥰
I’ll be doing many discussions and videos on that platform! I even have a new video coming out that will be posted Friday morning!
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Until next time my loves!